I still haven't seen "Endgame"

Heck bro I haven't even seen infinity war yet. I'm kind of a loser. I'm scared of sitting in front of a TV too much that I'll just completely miss out on life.

I think fear controls a lot of people.

I wish I had more to say but I'm even scared to have a blog after I've paid for the domain. I feel like I have to meet these requirements. In fact I learned about this in my Political Science class that I barely passed. I didn't start studying for the final until the night before and I somehow got a B on two hours of sleep and a very unhealthy amount of caffeine. *proud to say that I have given up Dutch and Roasters and I have felt so free since I have decided to do so.* I genuinely think that people can survive without caffeine. It's more of a social and mental thing in my opinion, we psych ourselves into thinking that we won't function without it. There are so many other ways to function and to get energy. Just be healthy you dork.

As I was saying; I don't remember who said this, but these are what define "The Perfect Standard" or before we take action on something we have to believe these four things.

1. It is the most important

2. That we understand it perfectly

3. We will be able to be eloquent in speaking

4. We have to be the perfect character.

Now I just want to clarify right now that I am a very fearful, anxious, socially awkward person and it's not all the time that I believe I have something to offer this world. I don't think I meet the "Perfect Standard" as briefly explained above. Hence it took a lot of guts for me to finally decide to do this. I don't think I'm smart enough, I don't think I have the best vocabulary, I don't know if I have the best work ethic.

But something I learned in many different aspects of my life is that you will never be perfect, and you won't get anywhere if you decide you can't decide you can't pursue your dreams until you're the perfect version of yourself. This goes with Body Dysmorphic Disorder that I personally think a lot of people fall victims to at some extent in their lives without even realizing it.

So I'm just taking this moment to say, I don't know what I'm doing either.

I'll watch Endgame eventually but probably not anytime soon because I'll probably just continue re-watching When Harry Met Sally, Titanic, and the newly released Rocketman starring the quite studly beautiful Taron Egerton; I looked it up he's not gay.

Following video of what goes through my mind whenever I think of doing something ambitious.